What kinds of thoughts come to mind when you think about your wife, as compared to others? Do you have any pictures or reminders of her on your desk at work, in your vehicle, or on your phone’s home screen? When you’re in love, there should be frequent times when you think happy thoughts about the one you love. (And don’t just think it—say it, or even text it to her.) When you feed your mind with positivity toward your wife, it’s amazing how it can help you fall in love with her all over again.
It sounds like you’re not really ready to let go of your mother’s diary; there’s nothing wrong with that. You might want to check out some of the cancer support groups online. Some have areas where people post their personal stories. If you feel up to it, you can scan her book (if it’s handwritten) and send it to them. I’m sure that her story would help others. Do you have other relatives who might like the diaries? It sounds like you might- I’d suggest offering the diaries to them first.
